Not Quite Dead.
A couple of years ago, I had a dream that another woman and I were standing in a wide hallway. We heard a report that someone needed to be transported out of the area to receive medical services. We found the closest gurney available to us, got on either side, and rushed down the hall to where the person was. When we got there, paramedics were already on the scene performing CPR.
Funny thing is, I could hear the person’s heartbeat. They were not resuscitating them. They were keeping them in that state, just making sure the heart continued to pump. As we impatiently waited for them to give the all-clear so that we could transport this individual, I looked at the gurney and saw that it was me. Then I woke up.
When I had this dream, I was in the middle of a great transition in my life. There was a lot of movement happening, a lot of changes. I felt the urgency of the Lord in that season. I took this dream to be a revelatory warning, which I would define as God providing revelation and insight for the season I was in and warning me regarding my next moves. At that time, God was asking things of me that scared me and required me to trust Him totally and completely.
His instructions were directly connected to my spiritual state. I was not dead. I was dormant, almost comatose. Remember, the paramedics on the scene were not trying to resuscitate me. They were just keeping me alive until I could be transported out of the area to receive medical services. Timing mattered. Positioning mattered. Who was with me mattered, and where I was going mattered. Hospitals are more equipped to handle acute situations than the paramedics sent in the interim. The transport was required. The transition was necessary.
Some of you are in a place of transition, and you have no clue about the why, the what, or the when. You just feel the urgency of the Lord.
A few Things:
My revelation did not come to me until I repented for where I went wrong in my last season, until I acknowledged my mess-ups and mishaps. I asked the Lord for forgiveness, and that same night, He gave me this dream for the sake of my sanity and clarity. His incredible kindness toward me in that season, and every other season, was always unfailing.
Transition is uncomfortable. It is inconvenient and oftentimes inconceivable to those around you. Hear God and go.
I am reminded of Jesus’s parable of the barren fig tree. He says, “A man had a fig tree that was planted in his vineyard. He came looking for fruit on it and found none. He told the vineyard worker, ‘Listen, for three years I have come looking for fruit on this fig tree and haven’t found any. Cut it down! Why should it even waste the soil?’ But he replied to him, ‘Sir, leave it this year also, until I dig around it and fertilize it. Perhaps it will produce fruit next year, but if not, you can cut it down.’”
Luke 13:6–9 CSB
I am quite literally the tree God did not cut down, though He had every right to. I’m grateful.
Sometimes God’s transitions are actually His mercy. I thought I was all right in my spiritual state. I did not realize my condition until God showed me how He found me: barren, fruitless, and dormant. Although it was my fault, He still wanted to revive me and heal me. His desire was that I would bear fruit. Jesus said it: “My Father is glorified by this: that you produce much fruit and prove to be My disciples.”
John 15:8 CSB
If you have found yourself in the shiftings of God this season, I pray that you would obey His voice above all. I pray that you would hear God and go. There is so much connected to your obedience. Seek wise counsel, have people praying for you, and be sure that God has the first and last word in your life. It may not make sense now, but your next seasons are contingent upon your ability to obey now and move now. Lay down what He is asking you to lay down. Pick up what He is instructing you to pick up. It is not just about you. It is not just for you and yours. It is Kingdom. It is God. Go with God.
